Goodnight Starlight

Now, this is just a random thought that crossed my mind..

HOW THE FUCK DO PEOPLE MAKE A LONG DISTANCE R’SHIP WORK??!!

Not like I’m in one, but there are moments I feel like I’m a sore loser blaming everyone/ everything BUT ME. This is just one of the few conversations to prove my statement :P :P :P

Me is ME and him is a friend. rofl

11:15 PM him: heya

me: sup

him: nothing much feeling little depressed

11:16 PM moot pressure

class work pressure

me: i understand

yay! Thank God I’m not mooting this year :P

him: everything mounting up to be a burden

and on top of it i am actually bored of life

11:17 PM seriously

the negatives of a long distance is actually eating me up from inside

me: the college nearly kills u

like

everyday

sad man.. :(

eh? What am I typing

him: i know

11:18 PM i know

but what is the way out

seriously at times i feel like dating someone here

but i cant flirt

that is just not m

I slowly shook my head

11:19 PM me: well

u can

if u wish to

coz ur a human.. lol

and quite frankly long distance sucks

i have been in one

I was like this satan, peering over his shoulders asking him to do the right thing… TO BREAK UP!

him: it is not as simple as it sounds

11:20 PM firstly i value commitment and cant imagine of breaking her heart and the commitment

then i know if i flirt with someone else here i am bound to get serious

that is where the issue starts from

me: then I don’t know how I could help

looks mutely into the screen, running out of suggestions.

him: i am afraid of my life now

i always knew that

didn’t I go through the same shit last year

11:22 PM me: see

another 3yrs here at blore

him: 4

me: can u manage a long distance?

to kill ur happiness

yes, 4

there u go

him: i dont know

actually i want to keep this one

11:23 PM but then these four years of my life-college life-which will never come back are going to be this shitty

thats it

i dont want it to be this way

i honestly love her

it is more than "just a relationship" for me

but .............

11:25 PM me: i know i know

same thing wimme and some fella last year

didnt work

we decided to part ways

11:26 PM him: its been one and a half for us already

but

i dont know

i am very conservative when it comes to making decisions

11:28 PM me: think it over

ur stil 21 :P

coz eventually

ur r'ship shouldnt smother u

don’t compromise with ur happiness

11:30 PM him: but isn’t a relationship also about sacrifice, compromise, patience.

after all its love

zzzz…

11:31 PM me: ur r'ship, my dear

mainly comprises of..

THE separation, the long distance..

11:32 PM and alotta sacrifices

u know the best

see what u can do

11:33 PM him: but it is not just me.......even she is doin the same for me.

she is facing exactly what i am

where the separation is due to my career needs

and she does it with a smile

11:34 PM me: i dunno what to say

-_-

11:35 PM wil tty tomorrow?

dads kickin me in the ass

and thats a lie :P

him: kool

bye bye

good night

11:36 PM me: gn man

tc

dont think much about it

u got other important stuffs

we’ll talk tomorrow

11:37 PM him: i know that one as well

me: chal

bye then

11:38 PM him: bye

gn

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i could’ve just gone all blurrgh over the monitor. but for a moment, it hit me that somehow i’m linked to this feeling too.. i could connect with him. somehow.

cant resist to admit, but breaking up coz of the long distance is just plain silly. :|

as much as a perv i am :P, i can also go any lengths to keep the commitment.

because its not the physical need, its something more than just that!

dont go by this pic :P :P

the echo of his words.. COMMITMENT COMMITMENT aaaaaaa.. still ringing in my head.. been single for a long time now you see :P

oh btw, i’m high :D :D

ahem! this post might surprise most of you, but folks i can be seriously romantic too u know.. yeah sadly..